If you don't see me, you're poisoned.
If you see me, you're cured.
Finally, the day has come. I'm officially being labelled as 【重色轻友】by most of my friends. Firstly is because I hang out with my boy everyday. Secondly is because I got no time to spare for my friends as he takes up most of my free time. Not that I blamed him, mind you, but living near each other has its benefit: We can see each other anytime we want whenever we miss each other. And we miss each other all the time even though we just met half an hour ago. That's what he says. Shhh :P
I brought mother for haircut at D-Good Saloon on Saturday evening. And I was being laughed for recognizing the wrong person because I was too deeply in love and cared less about everything else. Hahaha! And I had never been this blur before in my whole life. Embarrassed but, I still enjoy that remark because it was quite true. I had dinner with mother at Station One and was texting with my boy when I saw a cute guy. Then I went, "OMG. LENGZAI" in the text, and he complained that I was goggling at cute guys. Well, he stared at pretty girls too~ Lalala~ After I got home, I asked my brother about the courses thing but he was gaming so I waited him. My boy waited for me because he wanted to come over. Right after brother and I finished talking, he straight came to my house without telling me and I was wondering where he was when he texted me, saying that he was right outside my house. Some more, he told me to accompany him to buy iced coffee, a must-drink beverage of the day, and even hold my hands and walked into the restaurant. Epic. In the end, I ended up being bullied by both my boy and Ivan because Ivan told my boy to pretend as pearl milk tea machine and my boy just grabbed my head and shook. *seeing stars*
He came to church with me on Sunday since he was having off day from his work and we walked into the church hand-in-hand. I left him alone because I was having bible reading and after the Mass had ended, the choir goup leader asked whether he was my brother or friend. Then he wanted my boy to join the choir but I told him that he was just having a day off that day and would be working on other days. Susanna asked mother if he was my boyfriend and she said she wished to see my ex boyfriend. WTF was wrong with her? I skipped the choir practice session because my boy complained that he was hungry, since he didn't eat anything before going to church just now. After lunch, we went to Jusco for brief walk plus free food sampling before going to Snow Fusion. The feeling was very different from the first time. Last time, we were just newly met friends who can chat up a storm and this time, we were sticking to each other like glue. HAHAHA.
Sister-in-law planned to go to Black Canyon at Jusco Kinta City for dinner and changed to Sakae Sushi at Aeon Station 18 but there were so many people queuing so she changed to Secret Recipe. In the end, Ivan said he wanted to eat Wendy's so we had burger instead. Yum. After dinner, sister-in-law wanted to buy ice cream in Baskin Robbin since there were promotions going on and I saw Henry Choong there. He was queuing with his friend and he looked familiar from the back until he turned around and our eyes locked. Damn. I turned away but he kept staring at me nonstop until he even walked to another end of the rows of tables and sat directly in front of me so he could continue to stare at me. WTF? I guessed he might think that I looked familiar but for sure he couldn't recognized me, since I had outgrown my hair and gotten thinner. My boy came again to watch movie and again I ended up being a victim. Dang, I felt like being raped by those two "kids". They bullied me nonstop, treating me as a machine and when I resisted, Ivan even went, "I help you to catch her hands, you shake her!" Spare me please~ Later on, my boy told Ivan to call him "Seh Gu Jiong" (小姑丈 - Uncle-In-Law) and warned him not to tell my mother. But, Ivan betrayed him and he ended up hiding behind pillow for being too shy. HAHAHA! Serves you right for bully me. Every night when he said he'd leave, we would be stalling for another half an hour. Leaving is a hard thing to do so. I wish I can fall asleep in his arms some day but still haven't found a suitable timing. Aiyak.
I said I wanted to go for a jog with him but he didn't have any sport shoes. He thought of going to buy a pair but he kidnapped me to his house instead and watched an unfinished movie which consisted of porn. Our comfortable level together: porn? HAHAHA. He told me he'd come over after dinner but he fell asleep halfway through our chat around 2045 and then woke up around 0130 but I had dozed off around 12 something. That weird feeling came back again. And it hurt. One of the reason was partly because of my past relationship. Another reason, I hated being left alone, I despised being left out and I loathed the feeling of loneliness. I knew at that particular moment, I felt like avoiding him. Maybe I was trying to hide myself away and build another layer of protective wall around me. I knew I always say "Never mind" or "It's okay" but it didn't mean that I gave that person the permission to repeat the same mistakes. In the end, that person might just do it on purpose since I always forgive. Fooled me once, shame on you. Fooled me twice, shame on me. Fooled me many times, fuck you, I'm done with the forgiving part.
After he woke up, he was so panicked that he was wide awake and couldn't fall back to sleep. He went for Dota match in cyber cafe and came back home to stalk my blog. First few posts of my blog were abouthim and I remembered one of the posts had our pictures in it. He told me he was jealous when he saw one of the pictures. Please don't be, those were the past. I might walked passed places where we went before and the memories jogged through my mind, but nothing more. I did not feel sad anymore. You have done a lot to untangle the knots in my heart and I'm touched by your efforts. There might be some left but overall, I'm no longer be sad because of him anymore. And please believe me when I say "ILY" because I don't simply toss this word around.
I woke up for jogging on Tuesday morning and I guessed I hurt my ankle, just slightly but luckily no spraining. After the jogging session, I went home and saw his messages in Facebook. Later on, he told me he'd go bathe before coming to my house for a while just to see me. I felt like on cloud nine, it was a really cute gesture and he was really sweet. Yet whenever good thing happened to me, I always think that I don't deserve it. Maybe because he treats, pampers and loves me like a princess, and I'm just an ordinary girl with bitchy attitudes, so I think I don't deserve any good thing. What the heck am I talking about? Ugh. Back to happy stuffs, Kryss invited me to Starbucks for a drink at Parade after I commented at her status, complaining that she didn't invite me for lunch. We sat there, talked and then she went, "Let's go toilet" while her friends stared at her as if she had grown another head. Ka Lai even said, "What? You need people to accompany you to toilet?" But I was used to that phrase since we always went everywhere, especially toilet, together during our Form Five lives. After that, we went from top to bottom, helping Kryss to search for shoes but unfortunately, she couldn't find a suitable pair. She treated me Starbucks (THANK YOU!) and Chloe joined us to wait until my boy finished his work interview and fetched me home. Too bad I didn't want them to wait that long and told mother to fetch me when she called to tell that she wouldn't be going to church that night since something came up.
Brother brought us to Black Canyon for dinner and the food there was spicy, spicy and spicy! I didn't even know whether it was the hotness of the food which burnt my tongue or it was the spiciness. Maybe it was the combination of both. Oh God. And I had three cups of coffee that day. Morning, 3-in-1 Nescafe; Afternoon, Starbucks; and Night, Black Iced Mocha. Phew. It was a wonder I can sleep at 0330 that night. Or should I say, morning? He fell asleep again when he waited for me but he woke up, thanks to his friend, who called and said he'd come over to give back his phone. He straight came over and we chatted until 0300. I was shocked to see the time when I went to refill the water and we continued to chat for another half an hour before he had finally forced himself to leave. I found out something about his past and realized that he was quite cruel if he wanted the girls not to find him anymore. Phone numbers, deleted. Messages, not replied. Phone calls, unanswered. Wow. *afraid*
I went to Parade again the next day because mother wanted to hunt for shoes. What the hell was with women and shoes? LOL. I tried on a pair of heels which complimented my legs if I wore mini shorts but too bad they were very high and I was afraid of falling since I was not used to wearing such high heels. I saw the "working cloth" that I wished I can wear and the type my boy admired, so I decided to try on it. T-shirt size: S. Whoot! *sweeps hair* After I got home, he said it had been a long time since he called me. Later on, he said it was weird that both of us were so free at home but didn't meet up so he told me to get ready and he'd come to fetch me half an hour later. LOL. And it was him who said not to come over since it was not nice to hang out with me at home everyday in mother's presence. When he knew that she was leaving at midnight, he gave me those sinister smile plus evil laugh. *ran off* Ken, don't sing "Run, Devil, Run" song! HAHA. We went to Kinta Riverfront for the third time and this time, and again, the feeling was different from previous times. Free songs, free show. He hugged me and sang softly at my ears. Although the key was wrong, but it was so SWEET.
Everyone has their own definition of happiness. And so do I. Some people think that having infinity zeros of money figures in bank are considered as happiness. Some people think that having branded stuffs to show off are considered as happiness. Some people think that health is wealth and wealth is happiness. Some people think that having money to spend is considered as happiness. Some people think that as long as they can live through everyday with roof on their heads, shoes on their feet, rice in their bowls and some spare change in their wallet are considered as happiness. Some people think that as long as they don't go through a day without crying is considered as happiness. As for me, as long as I have my family and lover to pamper and love me, as long as I have my best friends by my side who will not leave me when I'm facing difficulties and as long as I'm smiling without faking, this is happiness.
Okay, I have never been this random since early of last month. HAHAHA. Signing off, bye.
He came to church with me on Sunday since he was having off day from his work and we walked into the church hand-in-hand. I left him alone because I was having bible reading and after the Mass had ended, the choir goup leader asked whether he was my brother or friend. Then he wanted my boy to join the choir but I told him that he was just having a day off that day and would be working on other days. Susanna asked mother if he was my boyfriend and she said she wished to see my ex boyfriend. WTF was wrong with her? I skipped the choir practice session because my boy complained that he was hungry, since he didn't eat anything before going to church just now. After lunch, we went to Jusco for brief walk plus free food sampling before going to Snow Fusion. The feeling was very different from the first time. Last time, we were just newly met friends who can chat up a storm and this time, we were sticking to each other like glue. HAHAHA.
Sister-in-law planned to go to Black Canyon at Jusco Kinta City for dinner and changed to Sakae Sushi at Aeon Station 18 but there were so many people queuing so she changed to Secret Recipe. In the end, Ivan said he wanted to eat Wendy's so we had burger instead. Yum. After dinner, sister-in-law wanted to buy ice cream in Baskin Robbin since there were promotions going on and I saw Henry Choong there. He was queuing with his friend and he looked familiar from the back until he turned around and our eyes locked. Damn. I turned away but he kept staring at me nonstop until he even walked to another end of the rows of tables and sat directly in front of me so he could continue to stare at me. WTF? I guessed he might think that I looked familiar but for sure he couldn't recognized me, since I had outgrown my hair and gotten thinner. My boy came again to watch movie and again I ended up being a victim. Dang, I felt like being raped by those two "kids". They bullied me nonstop, treating me as a machine and when I resisted, Ivan even went, "I help you to catch her hands, you shake her!" Spare me please~ Later on, my boy told Ivan to call him "Seh Gu Jiong" (小姑丈 - Uncle-In-Law) and warned him not to tell my mother. But, Ivan betrayed him and he ended up hiding behind pillow for being too shy. HAHAHA! Serves you right for bully me. Every night when he said he'd leave, we would be stalling for another half an hour. Leaving is a hard thing to do so. I wish I can fall asleep in his arms some day but still haven't found a suitable timing. Aiyak.
I said I wanted to go for a jog with him but he didn't have any sport shoes. He thought of going to buy a pair but he kidnapped me to his house instead and watched an unfinished movie which consisted of porn. Our comfortable level together: porn? HAHAHA. He told me he'd come over after dinner but he fell asleep halfway through our chat around 2045 and then woke up around 0130 but I had dozed off around 12 something. That weird feeling came back again. And it hurt. One of the reason was partly because of my past relationship. Another reason, I hated being left alone, I despised being left out and I loathed the feeling of loneliness. I knew at that particular moment, I felt like avoiding him. Maybe I was trying to hide myself away and build another layer of protective wall around me. I knew I always say "Never mind" or "It's okay" but it didn't mean that I gave that person the permission to repeat the same mistakes. In the end, that person might just do it on purpose since I always forgive. Fooled me once, shame on you. Fooled me twice, shame on me. Fooled me many times, fuck you, I'm done with the forgiving part.
After he woke up, he was so panicked that he was wide awake and couldn't fall back to sleep. He went for Dota match in cyber cafe and came back home to stalk my blog. First few posts of my blog were about
I woke up for jogging on Tuesday morning and I guessed I hurt my ankle, just slightly but luckily no spraining. After the jogging session, I went home and saw his messages in Facebook. Later on, he told me he'd go bathe before coming to my house for a while just to see me. I felt like on cloud nine, it was a really cute gesture and he was really sweet. Yet whenever good thing happened to me, I always think that I don't deserve it. Maybe because he treats, pampers and loves me like a princess, and I'm just an ordinary girl with bitchy attitudes, so I think I don't deserve any good thing. What the heck am I talking about? Ugh. Back to happy stuffs, Kryss invited me to Starbucks for a drink at Parade after I commented at her status, complaining that she didn't invite me for lunch. We sat there, talked and then she went, "Let's go toilet" while her friends stared at her as if she had grown another head. Ka Lai even said, "What? You need people to accompany you to toilet?" But I was used to that phrase since we always went everywhere, especially toilet, together during our Form Five lives. After that, we went from top to bottom, helping Kryss to search for shoes but unfortunately, she couldn't find a suitable pair. She treated me Starbucks (THANK YOU!) and Chloe joined us to wait until my boy finished his work interview and fetched me home. Too bad I didn't want them to wait that long and told mother to fetch me when she called to tell that she wouldn't be going to church that night since something came up.
Brother brought us to Black Canyon for dinner and the food there was spicy, spicy and spicy! I didn't even know whether it was the hotness of the food which burnt my tongue or it was the spiciness. Maybe it was the combination of both. Oh God. And I had three cups of coffee that day. Morning, 3-in-1 Nescafe; Afternoon, Starbucks; and Night, Black Iced Mocha. Phew. It was a wonder I can sleep at 0330 that night. Or should I say, morning? He fell asleep again when he waited for me but he woke up, thanks to his friend, who called and said he'd come over to give back his phone. He straight came over and we chatted until 0300. I was shocked to see the time when I went to refill the water and we continued to chat for another half an hour before he had finally forced himself to leave. I found out something about his past and realized that he was quite cruel if he wanted the girls not to find him anymore. Phone numbers, deleted. Messages, not replied. Phone calls, unanswered. Wow. *afraid*
I went to Parade again the next day because mother wanted to hunt for shoes. What the hell was with women and shoes? LOL. I tried on a pair of heels which complimented my legs if I wore mini shorts but too bad they were very high and I was afraid of falling since I was not used to wearing such high heels. I saw the "working cloth" that I wished I can wear and the type my boy admired, so I decided to try on it. T-shirt size: S. Whoot! *sweeps hair* After I got home, he said it had been a long time since he called me. Later on, he said it was weird that both of us were so free at home but didn't meet up so he told me to get ready and he'd come to fetch me half an hour later. LOL. And it was him who said not to come over since it was not nice to hang out with me at home everyday in mother's presence. When he knew that she was leaving at midnight, he gave me those sinister smile plus evil laugh. *ran off* Ken, don't sing "Run, Devil, Run" song! HAHA. We went to Kinta Riverfront for the third time and this time, and again, the feeling was different from previous times. Free songs, free show. He hugged me and sang softly at my ears. Although the key was wrong, but it was so SWEET.
有钱不一定快乐，没有钱不一定受苦。
每个人的幸福定义是不同的。
不要拿你的幸福定义来判断我的生活。
Everyone has their own definition of happiness. And so do I. Some people think that having infinity zeros of money figures in bank are considered as happiness. Some people think that having branded stuffs to show off are considered as happiness. Some people think that health is wealth and wealth is happiness. Some people think that having money to spend is considered as happiness. Some people think that as long as they can live through everyday with roof on their heads, shoes on their feet, rice in their bowls and some spare change in their wallet are considered as happiness. Some people think that as long as they don't go through a day without crying is considered as happiness. As for me, as long as I have my family and lover to pamper and love me, as long as I have my best friends by my side who will not leave me when I'm facing difficulties and as long as I'm smiling without faking, this is happiness.
Okay, I have never been this random since early of last month. HAHAHA. Signing off, bye.
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