Hi, dearies. I am in a hiatus state for quite some time already. Firstly, I'm not in the mood to blog. Secondly, I'm in the mood to blog but I procrastinated with videos and stalking. Thirdly, I am too busy spending time with my boy. Before, I blogged every few days because I was bored and there were not much activities for me to carry out. And now, I'm preoccupied with something else: love.
Mother was not around since last Wednesday midnight and I had to wake up early to fetch the maid on Friday. It was my first time driving to her house to fetch her ever since she moved to a new house last time. I had adopted the habit of browsing through my Facebook early in the morning when I just woke up to check my notification because someone will spam it before he went working sometimes. Shockingly enough, the wifi was not there. The whole thing was gone. WTF. They left it on throughout the night and turned it off and took it away in the morning just before they went to work. And to make my mood worse, I was planning to heat something in the oven but the plate was such a catastrophe. Dirt, dirt everywhere!
My boy was not feeling well on Saturday. I went to visit him at work but he was so tired and sick because of his stomach. In the end, he went home for rest after I finished my brunch. He thought of bringing me to his house so I can be his human pillow, but it rained right after we got back to our own house and he fell asleep while waiting for the rain to subside. He did come over to fetch me after he woke up and we just hung out for a while before he decided to sleep again. When I was in his arms, snuggled up warm and comfortable, I looked up and stared at his lips. I had no idea why I thought back about him, the moment he hugged me and slept and then my tears dropped, thinking about the past. Damn. How could I be so stupid in the past? There had been so many clues telling me that the relationship would be going downhill, but I was so blind to acknowledge it. When he finally woke up, he brought me for dinner before "crawling" to Aeon Station 18 because I wanted to buy something and he wanted to accompany me although he was seriously not feeling well.
He got better the next day and went along as planned: Late Sunday Afternoon Trip to Teluk Batik. At first, King bailed out on him in the morning because Elaine had just gotten her period but my boy insisted on going even if he had to bring me only since he didn't want to break his promise. I told him to postpone but he refused and in the end, King told him that both Elaine and him would still be going as planned. We arrived Teluk Batik around 1830 and then walked around separately, each with own couple and then my boy bought a pair of "I LOVE TELUK BATIK" tee shirts so we could wear them. After buying the shirts, we walked barefooted along the seashore and he wanted to change into shorter pants since the ones he wore had gotten slightly soaked wet. Hunting for King and Elaine so we could get the car keys, we got into the car and changed our shirts. He laughed and thought I wouldn't dare to change in car, and I proved otherwise. HOHOHO!
After we changed our clothes, we searched for King and Elaine again so they could help us take pictures. LOL. And my boy said, "We searched for you from day time until night time!" since the sun had almost set when we finally found them. After taking pictures, we walked along the seashore again to get splashed by the waves and then finally settled down to see the night time scenery while listening to the sound of the waves. Also, he was singing love songs while telling romance-gone-wrong stories which involved tsunami and jaws. Hahaha! Four of us met up again an hour later so we could get the wishing lanterns and released them after finished writing down our wishes. On the way back to the car to retrieve the lanterns, my boy offered to carry me. At first, he gave me piggyback ride. Then, he ended up telling me that he wanted to try carrying me bridal style. He managed to carry me but just for short distance since I wasn't exactly light. After finished releasing the wishing lanterns, my boy started to arrange letters with candles. Finally, we went to KFC in Lumut for late dinner before heading home.
He fulfilled my fantasies, those I ever imagined but thought would never come true. Strolling along the seashore barefooted while watching sunset. No guys had the intention of trying to bring me to beach before. Singing love song and directed it to me. Some guys just sang for fun without going through the lyrics and it would never be meant for me. Except him. Giving me piggyback ride and carrying me bridal style. I used to be really overweight and I had really low self esteem so I never expected someone to really carry me like that. Arranging letters with candles. This was unexpected. There were really not much guys who would do this romantic gesture. And for all these fantasies I mentioned, I never told anyone before. I'm really thankful and grateful to found someone who will waste time and effort to do so much for me, pamper and love me.
I had actually forgotten that I needed to go back to school on Monday since I promised to meet up with Yashni. I heard my phone rang and then checked the message half an hour later. It was from her, telling me that she might be arriving around 11, and I managed to reach school around the first break to fix my leaving certificate and had breakfast with Yee Wen. When I checked my Facebook news feed, it was really heartbreaking to found out that he was not feeling well again the previous night and tried to make the stomachache away by reading my blog. He ended up with headache and heartache, leaving me a reply from questions I had written few months ago.
That night, he came over and we chatted awhile. The feelings. The past. The present. The future. We talked a lot and I forced myself not to drop tears. It seemed like I was on cloud nine, oblivious to other stuffs and he forced me back to reality, whereby I had to face the fact. Ouch. Maybe I was in reality for too long and when I was finally in dreamland, I had forgotten about the pain, until I was being forced to face it. Okay, I had no idea what I was talking about. A fair advise from him, he told me not to love him 10 out of 10 in case we broke up and I was left with nothing. 8 would be fair since I left 2 more to love myself. And he said he was sorry for not being able to love me completely 10/10 because he was afraid he might gone crazy if we were to break up a day soon. 9 would be enough.
Again, I went to school on Tuesday so I can get back my corrected leaving certificate. He came over in the evening because he had to go and accompany his friends in the cyber cafe at night. It was our first time trying the MCD drive through and both of us were super blur case, but it was fun. He left after buying me dinner and I went upstairs to enjoy the aircond after my dinner. In the end, I was reading about the blog posts I wrote in my new blog. Tears dropped a bit, as I went through the past, thinking how stupid I used to be. He wanted to come over but it was quite late already, so he decided not to come. And he wanted to surprise me by appearing in front of my doorstep but unfortunately, I was upstairs and his phone credit was expired as it was 0000 already. Rushing to cyber cafe to borrow his friend's phone, he called but I didn't answer since it was an unknown number. In the end, he used his Facebook account to tell me to watch out for his car since he'd be coming. Hahaha~ What the hell. We chatted, we talked and I cried, thinking about the past again since the memories were clearly etched in my mind after reading back my posts. It was unfair for him, I knew he'd get upset, he'd get jealous and he'd get mad. But ever since that night, I no longer shed tears about the past, the tears served as something which made me finally put down about my past and I was thankful to have him in my life now.
We were on the phone for 90 minutes on Wednesday evening and I decided to skip choir practice that night since it was raining and I heard the news that the day before, it was raining heavily with ferocious wind which blew off the roofs of some houses and shops. I was quite afraid and someone else was worrying about my safety. We had dinner at Golden Point Food Mall nearby Station 18 and we went to search for movies to watch: Final Destination 1-5 and also, Child's Play 1-5. I almost told him to buy SAW but I knew he'd get freaked out. HAHAHA. We just managed to watch Final Destination 1 and 2 before he fell asleep and we slept until mother arrived Ipoh since we were to fetch her. It was lucky that he offered to fetch her with me or I had to drive all the way to Bercham since I had no idea the other YoYo bus stop was located in town area.
Brother invited him for dinner together with mother at Daorae Korean BBQ Restaurant and it was his first time having dinner with my family and also his first time trying the Korean food. Not all the food suit me but there were some which were nice. The BBQ meats and the dish brother ordered. It was beef but I had no idea about the name. When we left, we were given a lollipop each and then I started to eat his lollipop after I helped him to unwrap the lollipop. Gyahahaha! We managed to watch Child's Play before he left, being tired and sleepy since he couldn't sleep in the morning after fetching mother home.
He kidnapped me to Menglembu yesterday so he could search for food stalls since he planned to work at night but we couldn't find a suitable one. When we were having a cup of coffee in The Big Fan Food Court, I was throwing tantrum and said that I wouldn't leave if he didn't kiss me, because he was super shy after being kissed by me for few times. *evil laughed* We stopped by a temple near The Store because he saw clothes promotion there but we ended up walking through the furniture part. Ahem. The wedding set furniture: Bed, Wardrobe and Dressing Table. LOLOLOL~ The salesgirl kept promoting there and he said she assumed that both of us were just married or getting married. WTF.
And today, he told me that he'd be busy looking for a pretty girl in the afternoon and he ended up at my doorstep. I thought he was going for work interview or something. And I told him I didn't want to talk to him because he went to find pretty girl. Haha~ Then, he did something crazy again: Carrying me bridal style up to my room. My gosh. He was trying so hard to carry me upstairs and I was afraid he'd drop me or hurt himself. Crazy. Crazy. Crazy.
He asked me a question yesterday, wondering what I'd say to him if my family wants me to study overseas. The possibility was quite low but since he wanted ideas so he could write story, I'd tell him what I'd say. Pardon for the Mandarin, I'd translate if you guys request personally through inbox. Thanks.
傻瓜宝贝：你问了这种问题，感觉怪怪的。因为我不知道该怎么答你，不过我还是会认真的答你。第一，我答应会好好的读书，考个文凭回来。第二，你不要担心我在那里的生活，因为我会好好的照顾自己。第三，不要担心我会变心，因为我一打算好好的爱一个人，我就不会那么容易的对别人动心，即使他的条件好过你。第四，虽然远距离恋爱很辛苦，我也尽量不让你喝太多醋，不让你觉得没有安全感，不过要曾加你对我的信任。第五，不要随便撩别的女仔，不然我会抢你的醋桶~ >.< 【暂时讲着那么多先，以后有什么再添加】最后，我把以上那首歌献给你。
I had actually forgotten that I needed to go back to school on Monday since I promised to meet up with Yashni. I heard my phone rang and then checked the message half an hour later. It was from her, telling me that she might be arriving around 11, and I managed to reach school around the first break to fix my leaving certificate and had breakfast with Yee Wen. When I checked my Facebook news feed, it was really heartbreaking to found out that he was not feeling well again the previous night and tried to make the stomachache away by reading my blog. He ended up with headache and heartache, leaving me a reply from questions I had written few months ago.
How many people can truly love someone without conditions?
My only condition is I need your love too.
How many people can maintain the feeling of love?
Each loving day, I know this feeling won't go away.
How many people won't get bored of their lovers?
With you, I see forever so clearly.
How many people can keep their promises and fulfill their commitments?
I'll never break my promise,
till the day my life is through, this I promise you.
That night, he came over and we chatted awhile. The feelings. The past. The present. The future. We talked a lot and I forced myself not to drop tears. It seemed like I was on cloud nine, oblivious to other stuffs and he forced me back to reality, whereby I had to face the fact. Ouch. Maybe I was in reality for too long and when I was finally in dreamland, I had forgotten about the pain, until I was being forced to face it. Okay, I had no idea what I was talking about. A fair advise from him, he told me not to love him 10 out of 10 in case we broke up and I was left with nothing. 8 would be fair since I left 2 more to love myself. And he said he was sorry for not being able to love me completely 10/10 because he was afraid he might gone crazy if we were to break up a day soon. 9 would be enough.
Again, I went to school on Tuesday so I can get back my corrected leaving certificate. He came over in the evening because he had to go and accompany his friends in the cyber cafe at night. It was our first time trying the MCD drive through and both of us were super blur case, but it was fun. He left after buying me dinner and I went upstairs to enjoy the aircond after my dinner. In the end, I was reading about the blog posts I wrote in my new blog. Tears dropped a bit, as I went through the past, thinking how stupid I used to be. He wanted to come over but it was quite late already, so he decided not to come. And he wanted to surprise me by appearing in front of my doorstep but unfortunately, I was upstairs and his phone credit was expired as it was 0000 already. Rushing to cyber cafe to borrow his friend's phone, he called but I didn't answer since it was an unknown number. In the end, he used his Facebook account to tell me to watch out for his car since he'd be coming. Hahaha~ What the hell. We chatted, we talked and I cried, thinking about the past again since the memories were clearly etched in my mind after reading back my posts. It was unfair for him, I knew he'd get upset, he'd get jealous and he'd get mad. But ever since that night, I no longer shed tears about the past, the tears served as something which made me finally put down about my past and I was thankful to have him in my life now.
We were on the phone for 90 minutes on Wednesday evening and I decided to skip choir practice that night since it was raining and I heard the news that the day before, it was raining heavily with ferocious wind which blew off the roofs of some houses and shops. I was quite afraid and someone else was worrying about my safety. We had dinner at Golden Point Food Mall nearby Station 18 and we went to search for movies to watch: Final Destination 1-5 and also, Child's Play 1-5. I almost told him to buy SAW but I knew he'd get freaked out. HAHAHA. We just managed to watch Final Destination 1 and 2 before he fell asleep and we slept until mother arrived Ipoh since we were to fetch her. It was lucky that he offered to fetch her with me or I had to drive all the way to Bercham since I had no idea the other YoYo bus stop was located in town area.
Brother invited him for dinner together with mother at Daorae Korean BBQ Restaurant and it was his first time having dinner with my family and also his first time trying the Korean food. Not all the food suit me but there were some which were nice. The BBQ meats and the dish brother ordered. It was beef but I had no idea about the name. When we left, we were given a lollipop each and then I started to eat his lollipop after I helped him to unwrap the lollipop. Gyahahaha! We managed to watch Child's Play before he left, being tired and sleepy since he couldn't sleep in the morning after fetching mother home.
He kidnapped me to Menglembu yesterday so he could search for food stalls since he planned to work at night but we couldn't find a suitable one. When we were having a cup of coffee in The Big Fan Food Court, I was throwing tantrum and said that I wouldn't leave if he didn't kiss me, because he was super shy after being kissed by me for few times. *evil laughed* We stopped by a temple near The Store because he saw clothes promotion there but we ended up walking through the furniture part. Ahem. The wedding set furniture: Bed, Wardrobe and Dressing Table. LOLOLOL~ The salesgirl kept promoting there and he said she assumed that both of us were just married or getting married. WTF.
And today, he told me that he'd be busy looking for a pretty girl in the afternoon and he ended up at my doorstep. I thought he was going for work interview or something. And I told him I didn't want to talk to him because he went to find pretty girl. Haha~ Then, he did something crazy again: Carrying me bridal style up to my room. My gosh. He was trying so hard to carry me upstairs and I was afraid he'd drop me or hurt himself. Crazy. Crazy. Crazy.
He asked me a question yesterday, wondering what I'd say to him if my family wants me to study overseas. The possibility was quite low but since he wanted ideas so he could write story, I'd tell him what I'd say. Pardon for the Mandarin, I'd translate if you guys request personally through inbox. Thanks.
傻瓜宝贝：你问了这种问题，感觉怪怪的。因为我不知道该怎么答你，不过我还是会认真的答你。第一，我答应会好好的读书，考个文凭回来。第二，你不要担心我在那里的生活，因为我会好好的照顾自己。第三，不要担心我会变心，因为我一打算好好的爱一个人，我就不会那么容易的对别人动心，即使他的条件好过你。第四，虽然远距离恋爱很辛苦，我也尽量不让你喝太多醋，不让你觉得没有安全感，不过要曾加你对我的信任。第五，不要随便撩别的女仔，不然我会抢你的醋桶~ >.< 【暂时讲着那么多先，以后有什么再添加】最后，我把以上那首歌献给你。
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