Falling in love with him is out of my control, being together is an option and leaving him is a choice. Hmmm. My condition isn't so good. Sometimes I'm okay but sometimes I'm not. It's like riding a roller coaster, I'd get up-and-down, round-and-about, and everything is trying to mess with my thoughts. It is not as if I want to stalk all his activities but I have 105 friends in Facebook, and I know all of them although I haven't meet some of them yet, but still, most of them are close to me and I have removed so many unwanted people from my friend list. Other than that, I only have approximately 12 likes for pages and nothing much will be updated on the homepage. I stalk whatever there is for me. Um, okay. 105 friends might be very pathetic and less but why the fuck shall I add or approve those I don't know and make a fool out of myself by posting something irrelevant and attention-grabbing? I prefer staying in touch with my close buddies. *touch* HAHAHA~
There are few types of people who are fucking terrible and the world depends on them to be the evil mastermind behind all those disasters. Be it disasters in family, friends, relationship or even world peace. They just want to watch everything burn in hell. Yeah, sure. Scold them, humiliate them, insult them and do whatever it is to offend them but all they'd do is laugh their asses off and continue with their routine of keeping the world at the edge, not that the world has an edge since it is round.
One of the bastards I'd bring up here is the kind of people who brainwashes couples to do something to hurt each other, either mentally, physically, emotionally or spiritually. Lie to your spouse, s/he won't know a shit about this! Let's get to know more boys/girls so you have more options to choose instead of choosing your not-so-good spouse! See more pornographies and imagine your spouse is the main character in the sex videos you watched few days ago! Ignore your spouse, why the fuck is s/he so fucking attached to you, you guys aren't even married! Play it cool, let your spouse knows you are dominating him/her and s/he cannot control you to do anything at all! Single is the best, why are you in a relationship and get yourself fucked up with restrictions and commitments! Yeah, right. Seriously, this kind of people are seriously fucked up in their minds and I kid you not, those are the people who are not in relationship for quite some time and they are mentally imbalanced. Well, if you think I'm saying about you then most probably I am because those who get offended are most probably those who fuck up people's minds by planting those selfish, idiotic, "I wish you are foreveralone so we can be togetheralone" bastards/bitches.
And then, a friend of mine told me that she has feelings for a boy who is two years younger than her. And I went, "You want to turn out like me?" LOL. Okay, it is not as if I am against girls dating with younger boys but seriously, younger boys are really immature. And girls mature faster than boys at the same age. She said that the boy treats her better than her boyfriend and is more gentleman, cares for her a lot and always texts and calls her after they finish work. Sometimes, a person wishes for better although s/he already has a good one in his/her hands. Maybe s/he dumps the good one for the better one because of a rushed decision and then regrets about it few days/weeks/months later. Just an advice, everyone loves challenge, especially in getting someone they cannot own. They'd pamper you, care for you, make you fall in love with him/her, you decide to dump your spouse in order to be with him/her and WHAM! Bye bye, end of your relationship life. You are not getting him/her and you are definitely not getting back with your spouse. You'd get wasted, you'd hurt yourself and in the end, you'd end up living a life you're not supposed to live in. Sure, you'd say "We both know we are impossible to be together due to age difference." but look at me. I'm a fucking good example. I said that phrase before and look at where I ended up in? I was in a relationship with a boy who is three years younger than me. And then he told me, "I love you and as long as we understand each other, we will be secure enough to be together until we are old." but wait! What is the outcome? A breakup few days before our first anniversary. Life is so unpredictable. As a person says it is impossible, something impossible will happen.
Ahhh, right. Now, to the last point of my entry for today. I think I do not show any of those post-breakup symptoms so mostly everyone thinks that I'm still in relationship. Hmmm... Let's see, what is the trend of post-breakup symptoms for girls nowadays? Slashing the wrists? Committing suicide? Crying nonstop until the eyes bulge like goldfish? No eating except for sweet, diabetic sweets, chocolate, ice cream or food? Hiding away and being social-hater? Get wasted in beer land? Sure, let's check one by one. My wrists are so pretty with the veins popping out but I don't even poke myself with needles or forks or knives or even my shaving razor. I don't think dying will be the best solution other than being thrown to hell and get burn. Sure I'd cry but I just occasionally shed tears and I don't cry for more than 5 minutes. Eating those food will increase my weight and add on my fats so I don't think I want to get fat just for the reason I broke up. I'm socially shy but I don't always hide away since I still go out with my friends once a while. And I never touch alcohol at all ever since I broke up. So, yeah. It is not obvious that I breakup and who cares if you don't know? It's not like I have the duty to report to you. If you're my close buddies, you should know by now. Even if you're not, I don't think it is necessary for me to stick a huge signboard on my forehead, telling everyone that I am back to my single life. Duh.
And then, a friend of mine told me that she has feelings for a boy who is two years younger than her. And I went, "You want to turn out like me?" LOL. Okay, it is not as if I am against girls dating with younger boys but seriously, younger boys are really immature. And girls mature faster than boys at the same age. She said that the boy treats her better than her boyfriend and is more gentleman, cares for her a lot and always texts and calls her after they finish work. Sometimes, a person wishes for better although s/he already has a good one in his/her hands. Maybe s/he dumps the good one for the better one because of a rushed decision and then regrets about it few days/weeks/months later. Just an advice, everyone loves challenge, especially in getting someone they cannot own. They'd pamper you, care for you, make you fall in love with him/her, you decide to dump your spouse in order to be with him/her and WHAM! Bye bye, end of your relationship life. You are not getting him/her and you are definitely not getting back with your spouse. You'd get wasted, you'd hurt yourself and in the end, you'd end up living a life you're not supposed to live in. Sure, you'd say "We both know we are impossible to be together due to age difference." but look at me. I'm a fucking good example. I said that phrase before and look at where I ended up in? I was in a relationship with a boy who is three years younger than me. And then he told me, "I love you and as long as we understand each other, we will be secure enough to be together until we are old." but wait! What is the outcome? A breakup few days before our first anniversary. Life is so unpredictable. As a person says it is impossible, something impossible will happen.
Ahhh, right. Now, to the last point of my entry for today. I think I do not show any of those post-breakup symptoms so mostly everyone thinks that I'm still in relationship. Hmmm... Let's see, what is the trend of post-breakup symptoms for girls nowadays? Slashing the wrists? Committing suicide? Crying nonstop until the eyes bulge like goldfish? No eating except for sweet, diabetic sweets, chocolate, ice cream or food? Hiding away and being social-hater? Get wasted in beer land? Sure, let's check one by one. My wrists are so pretty with the veins popping out but I don't even poke myself with needles or forks or knives or even my shaving razor. I don't think dying will be the best solution other than being thrown to hell and get burn. Sure I'd cry but I just occasionally shed tears and I don't cry for more than 5 minutes. Eating those food will increase my weight and add on my fats so I don't think I want to get fat just for the reason I broke up. I'm socially shy but I don't always hide away since I still go out with my friends once a while. And I never touch alcohol at all ever since I broke up. So, yeah. It is not obvious that I breakup and who cares if you don't know? It's not like I have the duty to report to you. If you're my close buddies, you should know by now. Even if you're not, I don't think it is necessary for me to stick a huge signboard on my forehead, telling everyone that I am back to my single life. Duh.
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