Le Snake Year

Happy Chinese New Year! Another year has passed by yet there are so many changes. I'm living a carefree life while waiting for my STPM result. I have grown more mature in thinking. People say I've gone prettier *winks winks* I'm no longer in a relationship but currently enjoying my single life. I've been to club. My driving skill greatly improved. Hahaha~ I want to thank those who wished me "Happy CNY" through MMS, SMS and also inbox. It was a great surprise and pleasure to receive greetings from some friends.

I stayed home after coming back from church on the first day of CNY. I planned to resume my movie marathon and not going to online since I guessed most of them were busy visiting relatives. Who knew Eberwein told me to online to talk about the next day plan and I ended up getting stuck on the Internet until midnight, chatting with different friends.

Second day of CNY was better. I was anticipating to hang out with Kryss, Penny, Eberwein and Thor that I got ready an hour before going out. LOL. Nay, I was too bored so I just prepared myself earlier while waiting for Eberwein and Thor to get to my house. Thank goodness Eberwein no longer apply the "Malaysia Time" or else I'd have the roughest timber finding its way into her arse. Ngek ngek.

There were so many cars on the road although it was the second day of CNY. We were chatting about my scandal and she was like, "It proves that he likes you!" while pointing at the traffic light at Jusco. Coincidentally, the red traffic lights were love shaped so she went, "SEE! I told you so!" What the fuck? Anyways, Kryss did not recognize us when we walked towards Kbox as we were supposed to meet there. Since she said she was there, I turned and tried to detect her when we reached to the Kbox center. She was just behind us. Finally, my third-wheel partner appeared! I felt like a freaking "light bulb", shining over Eberwein and Thor, before Kryss joined us. They wore pink some more, like couple shirt, while I was alone, being blue. Ahem. Fortunately, Kryss wore blue too. Hehehe :3

We were frozen in Kbox for three hours until 1900 before we went to Tambun, Eberwein's grandparents' house, for dinner. On the way, I thought back the moment last year when I stopped by someone's house just to see him before going off to the same location. Memories, they are hard to forget. Kryss was very afraid of dogs because she thought they were very ticklish and then she sneezed nonstop since she was sensitive to dust, smoke and other stuffs. Eberwein was enjoying her massage chair before we went to fetch Penny and she even asked whether we wanted to try. I tried the "Rest N Go" in Miri before and it was kind of ticklish for me. Hahaha >.<

Kryss was driving her car so I followed her to Penny's house. During the journey, there was only one word I'd say: EPIC. She drove kind of to the middle of the road, sometimes I couldn't know whether she wanted to stick to the left or right. In the end, my thighs were kind of having spasms. Ouch. I kept flashing the car lights at Penny when she was getting into Kryss' car. Wakakaka!

We went to The Bus Bistro and ordered  a tower of Asahi. Kryss introduced a game whereby we needed to roll the dice and those who rolled a total of seven had to drink a sip of beer, drank half cup if one rolled an eight while finished the whole cup if one rolled a nine. At first, I kept drinking half cup until I rolled nine for few times. I couldn't even walk straight to the toilet after the second tower, Carlsberg, was finished. Eberwein was very "good" to us. For those who drank a cup, she filled the cup to the maximum before asking them to finish up. So you guys can see how much alcohol can be found in my bloodstream that time. My head was heavy but I was still conscious to drive car.

We went to House because Kryss wanted to add clubbing to my life dictionary. She was screaming directions in my ears while Penny was trying to shout back at her for screaming so loud. Eberwein joined in and I tagged along too. Poor Thor, I guessed he suffered temporary deafness. HAHAHA. It was awesome! The music was super and I couldn't hear anyone talking at all since the music was blaring effortlessly loud. I didn't finish half cup of beer at all because I felt my stomach was so full of beer since the first round that I'd vomit if I finished them up. Dancing to the music in a jammed pack club was quite nice and we left approximately an hour later, only to have Kryss giving Eberwein a lovely memorable memory. She vomited on her. HAHAHA! I fetched them back to The Bus so Kryss could get her car and I drove Eberwein and Thor home. Too bad we didn't take pictures together but seriously, it was fun. Ah Pon, Zi Lian, So High and Niu Niu. My stomach was super bloated when I woke up due to drinking too much cold stuffs the day before and I kept burping and farting. Fortunately, I didn't have hangover at all. Whoot!

My love for you is like a circle,

it has no end.

If only the dream continued. If only I did not wake up. If only everything was just a dream. That dream was so clear and it still etched deeply in my mind. A vacation to the beach. A stroll along the seaside. Walking hand-in-hand with beloved. Drizzling under sunlight. Rainbow. And him. Both of us had grown up. We had been more mature. He was still talkative, trying to make me talk. I was still quiet, enjoying listening to his rant. He said, "I do not fall for girls easily". I remembered that I replied him with a wan smile. That evening, I inboxed his father, telling him that I'm not willing to give up, that I still wish to hold on, that I still want to be with him, that I still love him. That day, I disregard all the words his father said to me during the forty minutes international phone call, because I gave up, I got tired of holding on, I wanted to break up.  Given the opportunity, I would have done the same thing. There's nothing else to be done already. He had already made it clear to end this although he didn't say it out. I don't know how he feels for me anymore and I don't want to know. Either answer, nothing can be changed already because he has a girlfriend now. When I tell my friends, they are kind of shocking to see that I'm fine. I'm really okay and happy for him. They all know I still can't really get over him after breaking up and are afraid that I'm just putting on a happy mask but crying on the inside. Nope, I don't. I'm honest about my feelings for him. Yet I know, he's too immature for me. Holding onto this relationship for almost is quite hard for him, and I'm glad both of us are free from this hardship.

Hehe. Lately most of my friends are getting into relationships already. I'm really glad for them. But sometimes I wish I'm not alone. Yet, it doesn't matter because I enjoy this single moment. I can talk to anyone I want, anyhow I want and whenever I want. I'm lazy to broaden my friendship circle in Facebook with unknown people since I don't know them and they are seriously annoying and perverted. Just like the guy who added me on CNY first day, his language was so restricted and poor until I felt like talking to a child, rather than an adult. But keeping in touch with old friends are kind of nice, excluding the fact that they are trying to invite me for a date. Zzz. What's wrong with guys wanting to date "good-looking" girls? Given few years back, no one even want to date me out. Fuck your eyes with bleach, please.