只对你有感觉

I had lunch date with Chin Mun yesterday afternoon, and gave her the belated birthday gift. She was very touched because she said it was her first time receiving a birthday gift from friend. Some more, the gift I made for her was quite special because it was something like a game. Hahaha. The effect of being too bored at home, just before I got my smartphone. Anyways, we chatted about my life because she said her life revolved around work while I was deeply involved with "love life"... And I told her these. Younger age guy tries to be considerate and wants to treat his girlfriend right, but he knows too little to do so, with less experiences and is very immature in thinking and actions. Same age guy is still immature and just think of wanting to get into his girlfriend's pants. Few years older guy is slightly immature and just want to have a long lasting relationship but too bad it will not last for too long. Those super late twenties and above guy is definitely mature and and very considerate.

Shawn scared the shit out of me when he told me his friends who studied Form Six had gotten his result already. Blood drained from my face and I felt like suffocating. Few minutes later, he told me that his friends trolled him. What the hell. I was so damn worried that I didn't know the news about the releasing of STPM results. Anyways, Teck called me for K-Box on Friday but I told him that I had no transport. He offered to fetch but I rejected, because I was kind of afraid to hang out with him and his gang of friends. When he just got my number, he called and asked, "Leng Lui ah?" and I was narcissistic enough to reply him with, "Uh huh~ Yes...?" LOLOLOL! My self-loving mode had leveled up, I actually admitted that I'm pretty.

By the way, I inboxed Summer and told him that I thought I saw him on Thursday night but didn't greet him because I was afraid I'd bother him so I sat far away from where he served the table. He was totally down and upset and finally decided to give up on me. Thank goodness. And the last epic line from him was... "Hope you are happy with him~" WTF. Oh, I'd bring you back to events happened these few days, because clearly you all are still blur with what I wrote actually. Still, I won't be writing my post in Mandarin because I want to make someone suffer headache when reading English. WAHAHA~ This is what two bored people do when their friends are too busy to hang out with them: hang out with each other everyday just to keep each other company. Or should I say, hang out, chat and laugh all the time. Well, what to do? Him with his no-sense-of-direction case and me with my manly princess case, become the spotlight every night.

He invited me out to night market on Thursday and even opened the car door for me when I was about to get into the car outside my house. Few hours before meeting him, I told him I was hungry since I ate "芋角" only and he said he'd buy food for me because I was princess. And he kept calling me "princess" nonstop when I told him not to call me "阿姐" since I felt older than him if he called me that. An hour before he came to fetch me, I was telling him that the sky looked very dull and might rain soon, and told him to pray. Right after he told me that he just prayed, the rain started. Hahaha~ Fortunately for him, God listened to his prayer and the rain ceased. It was a good thing it rained or else the night market might be even hotter. We walked many rounds in the night market and he searched the 3D Stitch phone casing for me. Too bad the casings for my phone were out of stocks.

Then, he decided to have a second round at Kinta Riverfront since I had never been there and it had been a long time since he went there. He knew I loved to blog so he asked me to take a lot of pictures to be uploaded here. We stopped by The Sands Bistro and Cafe just for the sake of wifi but I was trying to avoid the seasonal dude who worked there, because he had been pestering me to accept him all the time. I told him about this matter, and he helped by shielding me from that dude. Then we decided to sit down and talk, far from the place he served. In the end, we were swinging on chairs like little kids after changing tables twice just to get that  particular table so we could have fun. Still, we were laughing so hard during our conversation because sometimes we were just too epic. Blur case epic. Hahaha~ And he had this bad habit when driving: Driving and then suddenly went, "Aiyak! I forgot to buy iced coffee!". Or, he'd go, "Eh? How to go already? Hmmm~" He really has no sense of direction and he can even forget where he parked his car. I have to guide him to his car all the time.

The next day, I received Digi's SMS, telling me someone had put me in his "Buddyz List" so I checked the number and realized it was him. Lucky for him, he can text and call me for free. Unlucky for him, the plan is only available from 12am-6pm. Hahaha~ He said he'd bring me out for dinner since mother didn't cook on Friday night, and I couldn't decide what to eat since morning. I was sitting in his car, and he helped me to list out and cancel some places, so we settled for Japanese food in the end: Waraku Japanese Restaurant. We sat there for quite some time, waiting for the food to come, ate and then chitchat before deciding to go out from the restaurant since his back hurt from sitting crossed legs for too long. It was drizzling but he didn't want me to get wet so he went to drive his car over and even opened the door for me because he said "princess must not be exposed to harms". LOLOLOL.

We decided to go for second round because it starting to turn into a habit already since we always had second round. He wanted to go Karaoke pub because he wanted to listen to my singing but too bad his friend had moved and even changed his phone number. Later on, we searched for House but we sort of gotten into a political meeting area and waded through "people mountain people sea" just to get to House. But, he was forced to buy two buckets of beers if he wanted to go in and he dropped the idea since I couldn't drink that much and he hadn't drink for quite a long time. We went to Lavish instead and drank two buckets of beer. WTF. He regretted for not going House. Every time I drink beer, my stomach gets bloated with gas and sometimes I can't burp fast enough so I feel uncomfortable. In the end, he helped me drink some and he calculated that I drank roughly 3.5 bottles while he had 6.5 bottles. Both of us were slightly unsober when we got out from Lavish and he was holding my hand while I guided him to his car. Epic fail blur case. HAHA.

I was being interrogated by brother and sister because I had already went out with him few days continuously. They asked whether I was dating, who was he and what was going on between the both of us. Telling them that we were just friends did not convinced them because they kept "friend" when mentioning him. Duh, obvious with the teasing. Dang.

Last night, we went out again to sing karaoke because he had been hinting that we had already done 【吃饭，行街，睇戏，落pub】(dinner, walk, movie, go pub) except 【唱K】(sing karaoke). He wanted two rounds, just like we did for the previous nights out. So the first round, he went to have his dinner while I just had a drink. Later on, he brought me to E-Box for the karaoke session. Halfway through the singing session when the television was broadcasting "只对你有感觉 - Fahrenheit & Hebe", he took my hand and locked fingers with me, asking me for a chance and promised me that he won't hurt me. And we just sat through the remaining singing session, holding hands while singing.

有位路痴的傻瓜闯入了我的心房，

却因为迷路而出不去...

To tell the truth, I don't think of him anymore, I don't miss him anymore but pieces of him still remained somewhere in my heart. Last night after I had gotten home, I cried after reading what he posted. He was telling me that he was searching for something in his phone and then posted a song, the song which started our friendship in WeChat: Alone - CN Blue. I like him, I really do. I enjoy his company, I trust him, I even let down my guard and just chat with him like I have known him for years. This has never happened to me, because I am always shy and awkward and quiet around guys, especially in person. Yet, I think it is quite unfair for him, because I actually seal my heart up after the breakup. It is in knots and I cannot untangle them. That was the reason I cried. I'm afraid to get hurt again. I'm afraid of promises. I'm afraid of being loved and then when I grow attached to him, he'd push me away. I'm afraid to fall in love because it hurts a lot if I ever fall down. Three months are not really enough for me to heal my wounds. He has to put in a lot of efforts if he wants to slowly untangle those fragile knots in my heart.

You fall, I fall.